The Most Unhappy X'mas Eve*

Merry X'mas!! So?There are nothing special about it.
Everyone are enjoying their Christmas count down party yesterday at Gurney,but i just walked here and there with my friends.
28/12 i will be going to Kedah for the NS already,i really thought yesterday night would be have nice memory with her.But....it did not happened.Kinda dissapointed to her...sigh!
Im so regret went to there yesterday,is very boring and doing nothing at there,wasting all the time.
Anyway,i don't wanna to think it anymore.Going NS soon...start new life!



But....she still in my heart.

64days

64days left only,but i still not in the mood to study
sigh~
how can i score in my SPM??--''
everyday my parents keep asking me to read this read that
HELP!! i need to take a break!
now not only my parents,even my cousin sister also said so..
although she is rich,and quite care about me(i want what she buy what,XD)
but everytime when i meet her,she will start her "BIG TEORY" to me
they totally don't know what i want in the music..haiz
but what can i do???
hmm,this coming 64days
i must try my best to work hard on my studies already!
gambateh!
=)

爱的感觉

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。

i had woke up,but izit too late for me?

i had woke up,but izit too late for me?

just a few days ago,when i was having dinner with my friends after tuition
suddenly one of them asked me about my ex-gf.i was surprised,she asked me that do i hv a ex-gf surname is Lim....
at first i thought that she was joking with me,so i answered her that..."I HAD FORGOTTEN"
the response that she give me was scold me ==!
she told me that my ex-gf was her cousin,and her name is....i was shocked and feel surprised for it on that moment!
well,since she told me that she is her cousin so i just told her about me and her.

we know each other after PMR,after that we started our relationship.
(actually we just meet once before)
at first,all of my friends said that im stupid.simply start a relation with a people that just meet once,but...i did not bother to what they said.LOL
she was a friendly,sweet,nice girl i ever meet,and her family circumstances was quite good.
i feel sorry to her,after she was with me and she really changed a lot.i knew that,before that she wont even sit the public bus or walked to a place for a long distance.but she had change after being with me,i really appreciate it!
we have being together for half a year,at the end we broke up.when we broke up,no ones believe that ==''
all my friends keep scolding me include my sister and parents too!
i just keep silent on that time...
we've broke up for 1year more already,honestly i really regret but what can i do?
now i had woke up!everything was my wrong,but izit too late for it?whose know?
i just can blame it to myself!
if i were given a chance again,i swear that i will never let u leave me again!
i swear for it!

stop it!

please stop it! i can't stand it anymore,and i know what i am doing now
stop intervere my private life -.-''
recently my parents keep give me pressure,almost everyday i also have to listen to their "TEORY"
sight~~~
maybe is because of SPM is near now,but i have my planing!!why are they show understanding or sympathy to me??haiz...!!
i can't breath at all,but what can i do??still need to face it..=.=''
really hope that stupid exam faster come and i pass it!

we'll miss you

received shan shan message at...forgot what is the time already.
she asked me to wake her up at 6am,cause need go for school~
after that i continue sleep..
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today was my god mother the 5th day she pass away,i went to meet her family.
around 2something in the afternoon,we start the funeral procession..
before the procession started,got a band played some music for her..
at first i tried to tell myself not to cry,but.....i cry at the last.
i was very regret that did not always go visit her,the last time i talks to her is on the CNY till now
i miss her alots.when i was small,my parents keep busy working...is she!
she is the one who raises me grew up,she is almost like half of my mother.
when the funeral procession starts,we walked to around my school there than sit bus to the cemetery...
it was a hot day,and our mood is sad T_T
when the people push the coffin into the fire,i cry...but silently
i really do not want her to me like that...
now i just realize that,how was the feel when someone leave us...it was very painful!
no matter how long the time pass,YOU...will still in our heart.we will miss you....

rest in peace ba~

25/5/08
xian' s sis,kai sin invites me to her birthday at Chikuma Japanese Cuisine..
at first,i though that it will be fun at there..LOL
(i did not mean bored) but when i reached there,it was very surprise me ==''
im gonna ate with her family,nevermind...i meet xian parents before except her father
hahaz!
but,not only that...her grandpa and other relatives is joining us too.so,i choose to be silent at there.but kai sin keep called me talks..lolz
i really dont know want to said what except keep on stare on my phone..hahaz!
after that,i ordered teriyaki set..quite nice~
time pass very fast,it was already 10something..i went back to home

P/S:happy birthday to u,kai sin =)